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I'm just going thru some stuff in my life that I'd rather not plaster all over the internet. Those who need to know do know and that's the way it's going to be for now. :)

Reposting this from Facebook

This is one of my mom's recipes that I've always loved and I never make because the only thing in here Gary would eat is the potatoes and salt probably but whatever. I made this Thursday evening and it will be gone by Monday morning. I've had it for breakfast, lunch and dinner.. lol.

Summer Italian Salad

You're going to need:
- 5 cups cooked potatoes (big cubes)
- 1.5 cups celery chopped
- 1 cup diced Provalone
- 3/4 cups Summer Sausage
- 1/4 cup pepperchinis (save the juice)
- 1/2 cup chopped onion
- 1.5 cups sour cream
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon oregeno (I use Italian Seasonings instead)
- bunch of cherry tomatoes (I usually cut these in half for salads but I left them whole this time... luhhhazy)


Directions:
1.Toss together the potatoes, cheese, celery, sausage, onion and pepperchinis.

2. Blend together sour cream, pepperchini juice, oregeno and salt

3. Mix the dressing into the potato mixture.

4. Fold in half of the tomatoes and chill for several hours.

5. Top with the remaining tomatoes.

- I use the whole stick of summer sausage because I just do.. no reason.
- I'm not really sure HOW much pepperchini juice to use measurement wise. I just pour it in until the dressing is thin enough to coat everything in the salad.
- I used 2 cups of sour cream instead of 1.5. I HATE dry salads.
- I used double the banana pepper rings too.

Lisa's Blueberry Crisp

Ok, the first time I saw this recipe I was convinced that my pregnant sister had lost her ever loving mind and would just eat blueberries even if they were covered in kerosene or something. WRONG!
I made this twice before today. I just had to make sure it was perfect before posting it of course. Then since I ate the other two I had to make it again for pictures... see? I'm good at these excuses things.



Lisa's Blueberry Crisp.

4 cups of fresh blueberries
1 cup of all purpose flour
3/4's cups of sugar
1/2 teaspoon of cinnamon
1/2 cup of mayonnaise

1. Preheat the oven to 350 (175 Celcius)
2. Put the blueberries into an 8 inch square baking dish.
3. Stir together the flour, sugar, cinnamon. Stir in the mayonnaise until the mixture resembles course crumbs. Sprinkle this over top of the blueberries.
4. Bake for 35 to 40 minutes in the oven until the top is lightly browned.



EAT IT!!!



Substitutions:
1. you can use frozen berries. Lightly dust them in flour to help with the moisture problem.
2. I like EXTRA crumble and there is only 2 of us so I use half the berries but the entire crumble mixture.
3. The recipe calls for mayonnaise NOT MIRACLE WHIP DO NOT USE THAT DISGUSTING STUFF!!!!!!!!

Caesar Chicken Pasta Salad

So I got up early this morning and pulled out my crockpot. I threw in 3 chicken breasts and a cup of water with a chicken Oxo cube. Have I ever mentioned just how much I LOVE OXO? They're probably the best bouillon cubes in the world and if any of you would like to try some just holler and I'll send you a few boxes.
So anyway, 4.5 hours later I pull the lid off the crockpot and dive in with 2 forks and shred all this delicious juicy chicken to bits and pieces. I now have a tupperware full of shredded chicken. Why? Because I'm making 2 pasta salads this week that need chicken.

Here's the first one.



Caesar Chicken Pasta Salad

* 1/2 cup Caesar Dressing
* 3 cups pre-cooked chicken breast, skinned and shredded
* 3 cups hot cooked penne pasta
* 1 1/2 cups cherry tomatoes, halved
* 1/2 cup fresh basil, thinly sliced
* 1/2 cup green onions, chopped
* 1/4 cup carrots, shredded
* 1/4 cup fresh parsley
* 1 (4 ounce) package feta cheese, crumbled
* 1 garlic clove, minced

Put it all in a big freaking bowl ... mix and chill.. and EAT IT ...

Substitutions:
1. I didn't feel like making a Caesar dressing so I used Marzetti Supreme Caesar Dressing. I also used well over half a cup. I don't like dry pasta salad.
2. I didn't shred my carrots, I used my Pampered Chef chopper and chopped the hell outta them.
3. I couldn't find fresh basil anywhere so I used a bunch of dried basil. Probably a good 3 tablespoons.
4. I doubled the garlic. I really love garlic.

The 5 Love Languages

Gary and I took this little test about a year and a half ago and the results were interesting. We're both completely different.
Basically the way it works is this:
1. You take the test.
2. You get the results.

YOUR love languages (generally the top 2) are what your spouse/partner needs to show you for you to feel love. Your spouse/partner's love languages are what THEY need from you in order to feel loved.

Mine are "Physical Touch" and "Words of Affirmation". Gary's are "Quality Time" and "Acts of Service". (I have explanations of each coming.)
It's a common mistake couples make to give their spouse what they themselves need to feel loved. For example: While I'm sure Gary appreciates touching and loving words that's not what he needs to feel loved and vice versa. It's very important to know their love languages in addition to your own. :)

You can take the test here:
The 5 Love Languages

Here are the results you can get:
Words of Affirmation
Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important—hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten.

Quality Time
In the vernacular of Quality Time, nothing says, “I love you,” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes your significant other feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed dates, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful.

Receiving Gifts
Don’t mistake this love language for materialism; the receiver of gifts thrives on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift. If you speak this language, the perfect gift or gesture shows that you are known, you are cared for, and you are prized above whatever was sacrificed to bring the gift to you. A missed birthday, anniversary, or a hasty, thoughtless gift would be disastrous—so would the absence of everyday gestures.

Acts of Service
Can vacuuming the floors really be an expression of love? Absolutely! Anything you do to ease the burden of responsibilities weighing on an “Acts of Service” person will speak volumes. The words he or she most want to hear: “Let me do that for you.” Laziness, broken commitments, and making more work for them tell speakers of this language their feelings don’t matter.

Physical Touch
This language isn’t all about the bedroom. A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, holding hands, and thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face—they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive.

It's pretty simple.
It's also fun when your spouse/partner knows what your love languages are and passive-aggressivly goes out of their way to make sure you receive neither. Yup, tons of fun. Thanks.

I'm trying really hard...

...really really really really really hard to be the wife that I WANTED to be, not the wife I have become. I'm making some serious changes.

I love you Gary.

You know dear...

Oh lookie, I have some more red baby tomatoes. That's enough to make half a salad... now if they'd start growing in with maybe oh 10 to 20 red ones at a time I'd be happier. Stupid gardens.

I haven't been up to much of anything. Just hanging low keeping to my own business and trying to keep my marriage from falling apart.

Two weeks ago we had marriage therapy. When we were leaving I asked the girl at the front desk to cancel my personal therapy appointments. It just wasn't working out with that lady and I didn't want to try again. A week later I get a call from the same girl telling me I had missed my 2:30 appt with Dr. So and So that day. I said, LAST WEEK I told you that I cancelled all my appointments with her. And on that note if I had this so called appointment today why didn't anyone call my house to verify this like you guys are supposed to. She had nothing to say so I said very clearly "Please cancel all of my personal therapy appointments that are on the schedule".
So we get there today at 2:30 for our marriage therapy. We're filling out a questionnaire we have to fill out every time we go in and she comes scampering out of the back and says "you know when you had me cancel your appointments..." I cut her off and said "Let me guess, you cancelled this one too".... and she said yes so I started to crumple up the questionnaire and she says no no no I can still get you in and I say when because I don't have all day and neither does Gary. So I uncrumple and keep filling it out. Meanwhile she disappears and out comes the doctor who's been my personal therapist for a few times and she said that Airman so and so is very sorry and feels horrible but that we can reschedule and I'm like Um.. she said she could fit us in and she said no.. your doctor just stepped in with some other people... ok first of I'm already pissed off at Gary before we even get here... I'm even MORE pissed off at Gary because of some of his answers and now I'm FURIOUS with this stupid IDIOT they have running this office. So I recrumple the paper and walk the eff out of there. Gary stays behind to reschedule. NOT UNTIL JUNE 14th CAN THEY SEE US.. hopefully I haven't left him by then.
I started a journal the week after I found out he had cheated on me last August. EVERYTHING I predicted would happen over the next few months after has HAPPENED.
I gave him a 3 month ultimatum 1.5 months ago. Maybe my vacation to visit my baby sister in Hawaii won't be a vacation but a moving in. We'll see.

Right now I'm too furious for anymore words than this.